Tuesday, January 27, 2009

By Your Side, Tenth Avenue North

Tonight I was driving home and this song came on the radio that broke my heart open. Take a listen and then read over the lyrics. Everything about the song is true in my life right now. I hope you enjoy and God Bless.


Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you


Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Monday, January 19, 2009

Life Lessons from a Car

For the last three days my car has been sitting on the side of the road, dead. Each time I tried to start the engine my little car gave all it had to start, however it was just cold and lifeless. I tried just letting it sit and have the sun warm it up and I even tried my best attempt to jump-starting it. And yes I did have to google 'how to jump start a car'. However, nothing seems to work. Finally I gave in and called to have it towed away. When they finally arrived I was talking to the guy about what was wrong. He got in the car and continually tried to start it. My car put up a fight with him. It made all kinds of noises, movements, and release gas, but after about 10 minutes it started. This made me think about life and how we put up a fight against Jesus. We try everything to live a happy, fullfilling life but nothing seems to work. We hand different elements over to Jesus and we show little signs of life but it never lasts long. It's only when we throw up are arms and hand everything over to Jesus and allow him to clean and mold us into the person he create, do we show signs of life and start living.

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Nothing to Good

This week I was reflecting on the past year. Just over a year ago my view on life completely changed. I learned that nothing in life is too good and that I don't have to settle for less. I used to think that I would always have to change for the people that came into my life. Plus I never thought I could have a man of my dreams. All the guys that came into my life I liked were just too good for me or the ones that liked me treated me like dirt. However, a year ago I learned that God was molding a man to be my future husband. That I didn't need to give in to a man that would harm me and force me to change to be someone that I'm not. Plus all the men I thought were too good for me really and truly are nothing compared to the man Jesus is molding to bring into my life. I can't wait tell that day and I take each day as a chance for Jesus to also mold me.

Monday, January 12, 2009

Lesson learned from a homeless man

The other day I was sitting at a coffee shop working on a project for work when a man joined me at my table. Not a big deal because it happens all the time, however this time it wasn't the same. He began a conversation with me that lasted for about 2 hours. As we continued our conversation I began to feel God working in our conversation. I began talking to him about Jesus and gave a couple of verses Jesus was speaking to me. I new from the start the man was homeless however I didn't want it to change the way I interacted with him. Through our conversation we talked about hope, dreams, and friendships. I talked to him about how I could depend on my friends to be there for me. How I could count on them and so on. It was a real eye opener because often you forget. As the night got later I became afraid on the man that sat on the other side of the table. Not because of something he did but because of his unstable mental help that was revealed. Then and truly then was when I reminded of how great my friends are. With a single text message I was able to contact a great friend of mine who responded and was at the coffee shop within 15 minutes to walk me to my car. That night was a great reminder of true friendship and the power of Jesus Christ in our life. He provides opportunities to help people in need of encouragement as well as providing protect for our safety. All you have to do is to put your trust in him!

A lesson to learn

"You can't change a person, you can only change the way you react."

Friday, January 9, 2009

Looking at Life!

The way you look at life can completely change your life and attitude. It's kind of like the old saying of is the glass half full or half empty. Over the last month I can look at all the bad and disappointing things that has occurred and give up, or I can praise God for the special moments he has provided for me. I can bury my head in my lap and cry or I can pick my self up and cherish my time here on earth. It kind of has to do with my theme for this year, "Dream Big." I can take the set backs and stop dreaming or I can push on and dream bigger dreams. Tomorrow I am celebrating my 24th Birthday and I am going to start off by looking at my life from a new angle. I want to stop viewing my life for all the bad and disappointments that occur. I want to praise God for all the amazing things in my life and the beautiful person he has created me to be. My whole life I have always dreamed of being beautiful and looking a certain way. But each day I am learning how beauty comes from believing in yourself. Reflecting your love in your heart, and allowing the glow to shine bright. So may the love in my heart shine bright for all to see and allow me to view life in a completely new way. May I take the disappointments in life and turn them to be lessons and blessings and may I praise Jesus for all the wonders he brings my way! May tomorrow be a start of something new, something beautiful!

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Dreaming BIG!

A couple of friends of mine have this tradition of having a theme for each year of there life. Over the last month I have been thinking about what my theme was going to be. Well there's lots of things I would like to do and to accomplish over the next year of my life, and it's been hard coming up with just one theme. So I have finally narrowed it down and the theme for my 24th year is to "Dream Big." Lately I have settled for less in life and have given up before allowing God to work in my life. So this year I am going to "Dream BIG" with Jesus by my side. I can't wait to see what he has planned this year and the years to come. May I be open to the opportunities and allow him to work in every area of my life.

"I can do everything through him who gives me strength." Philippians 4:13

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Not So Special

Over the past couple of weeks I have been thinking about what would make my birthday special. Many might think that I don't enjoy celebrating it. However I am filled with excitement of the day. The only thing that turns me away from my birthday is what others would say as the inconvenience of it. All my life I have only wanted my friends to join me on my birthday for a celebration. Doing something that I enjoy and helped planned. You see often people tell me I have a great birthday (December 31st) because everyone is celebrating. Yes this might be good for someone who enjoys the party life but that's just not me and yes everyone is celebrating somewhere else. Most of the time my birthday gets missed all together and/or blended with Christmas. The last couple of years I have tried to celebrate my birthday by myself and don't get me wrong I had a great time, however something was missing. The laughter! This year I decided I would postpone my birthday and just have a celebration when everyone gets back. Now I really don't want this out of the bag tell last minute because I want people to come with out knowing it's a birthday celebration. I want them to come, because they want too! They want to enjoy a nice get away with there friends. Most of the time I will give into other to make things convenient for them. This time however I am standing firm, even if I go alone to celebrate. For I rather spend a day alone then with a friend in a rush. So I pray that God will take my not so special birthday and turn it into something breath taking!

Monday, January 5, 2009

Prayer

"When life gets too hard to stand... kneel."