Monday, December 8, 2008
I cry out in pain, in heartache, and loneness. I burying my head into my hands and burst out in tears. Uncontrollable I weep, for the last person I could trust made the deepest cut possible on my heart. I sit here weeping because I lost my best friend, I lost the person I counted on to be their in time of need. I sit here curled up in a ball of emotion not wanting to move, not wanting to live life. But as I'm crying and my eyes start to burn I think about Jesus' arm reaching out to pick me up. I think about his love and the hope he gives me. I know and understand Jesus' love but tonight my heart was cut to the deepest layer. It was cut to remove the hardened shell from my heart but for tonight I lay here and cry tell my eyes run out of tears. Tell God reaches down and says enough I let you release the pain and heartache but now it's my time. It's my time to be your everything, to mold your heart, and to be your rock! Tell then I lay here with my head buried in my hands and cry.
Posted by Hailey at 5:32 PM
Friday, December 5, 2008
The silent air around me starts to close me in. I try to move, I try to breath, but nothing. I try to break through but nothing. I try to cry and yell for help but nothing. The walls get closer and I begin to break. The pressure crushes my heart, my soul, and my strength. Tell almost nothing is left.
Posted by Hailey at 6:09 PM