Sunday, August 31, 2008

It's ok to cry!

Sometimes in life you just need to sit back and cry. No one ever said it was bad to cry. Jesus even cried, look at John 11:35. So you might be wondering why so sad, why not cheer up big pup as an old friend would say. But sometimes in life you fall in love and love is not a easy thing. You try your hardest to do all the right things and act the right way but then you're not prefect. You missed a step, or get out of alignment, and you heart begins to ache. In all my ways I find my self searching and reaching for that love. The love the last through all kinds of weather, and in all times. The love you don't question because you know at every moment he is as madly in love with you as you are with him. This love is the love I long for and the love I know I have.

Thursday, August 28, 2008

The End Of The Beginning

Over the past year I have had the honor of serving as an AmeriCorps member with Habitat for Humanity of Indiana. This opportunity has opened many new doors in my life and has allowed me to add purpose and meaning to my life. I came to Lafayette looking for life and I gained so much more then I could every of imagined. Since that leap of faith I have completely handed my life over to Christ. Giving everything I am and I have to his glory. I have meet some of the most amazing people and they have inspired me to reach for the stars. To put faith in my self and to believe anything is possible when you walk next to Jesus. I can truly say now I am living life. I am reaching for the mountain tops and I'm not holding anything back. I mean who just gets on a bike and rides 350 miles across the state of Indiana? Well I did and that is one thing I am proud of. I never gave up and each time when the rain fall and my body filled with pain I looked to the Lord to get me strength and he did. He provided for my need and never let me down one minute. Now he is allowing me to even push my self further as I train for the half-marathon. Each of these events have made me realize that anything is possible with Jesus by my side. I truly understand Jesus purpose for this last year in Lafayette and I look forward to each new day to see what he will provide for me. Who he will bring in to my life, what career path he has plan, and just how he will mold me into the person he has created. So may this not be the end of a journey but only the beginning.

Word of Wisdom

Sunday, July 27, 2008

Proverbs 3: 5-6

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight!

Sharing New With Old!

Thursday, July 24, 2008

One of the hardest things to do is to go back to the past. To met your fears head on and to open up your heart to all your friends and family. To let them see the changes and let them know that this is who you are. This past couple of days I have traveled back home to see and celebrate my brothers wedding. With this comes the past and what people know of me. Also it comes with questions and beliefs that many just don't understand. I put my trust in the Lord and just pray that I will be able to allow some to understand who I am and that Jesus is now the center of my life. I put my life in Jesus and he will make my paths straight (Proverbs 3:5-6) this is my prayer!

Sharing the Light

Saturday, July 19, 2008

A new sense of purpose has overwhelmed me with happiness. This new purpose in my life is sharing the light of Jesus with everyone I know. Letting people know my journey and helping them along the way to begin a personal relationship with Jesus. Today I was given the chance to share my story with two close friends of mine. Before my journey with Jesus I would never of bought up religion, however now I look forward to sharing my story and the relationship I have with Jesus. Each day is a new step for me and I am amazed at what Jesus is doing in my life. I look forward to each new day and each new chance to make my light shine bright for all to see!

The journey called LIFE!

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Everyone has a story to tell in life and my story is about the wonders of my savior Jesus Christ and it goes a little like this...

Along the journey called life I have experienced many up's and down's and have had my share of hitting rock bottom. However at every bottom I seemed to find Jesus reaching to pick me up and put me on firm ground. About a year and a half ago I decided to take a leap of faith and follow Jesus to the Lafayette area because this was where he was calling me. I didn't really understand what he had planned for me but just knew it would be something amazing. Since moving to Lafayette Jesus has opened many new doors in my life. He has allowed me to meet some amazing people who showed me a better way of living and that was living for Jesus. Since then I started looking forward to things, planning ahead, and just gaining confidence in myself. However there still was something missing and that was the ultimate gift of handing my life over to Jesus. I was holding back because I was afraid of letting him have complete control over my life. Also I was afraid to let a man into my life because of the violence, the rejection, and the hurt that came from past experiences. I truly didn't know if I could let myself fall head over heels in love again. This however was something Jesus was allowing me to open up about. Jesus gave me an amazing friend that I felt safe around and allowed me to open up and talk about past issues that was stopping me from giving my life to Jesus. Another thing that was stopping my relationship with Jesus was that I was trying to force it. I wanted so bad to hand everything over and for it to be prefect the next second. That's just not how it is, love with Jesus is something that come natural. There is no forcing it. From their my conversations with Jesus completely changed. I started feeling him in my life, and in my heart. On July 4th Jesus proposed to me the most amazing way. He did it the way I had always dreams of, the way I wanted my princess charming to propose. However it was more amazing then I ever thought. After I said yes I was flooded with emotions. I started skipping and grinning from ear to ear. At that moment I had felt the most alive then I had ever felt in my life. Since that day Jesus has made a new purpose in my life and that is living for him. I have gained patiences, I've stopped worrying, and most of all he is giving be confidence to share his love with others. The most amazing thing is the feeling of love. Every corner of my mind, body, and soul is truly head of heels for him and this is not because of something I did, it is because of the power and grace of Jesus. I now look forward to the doors Jesus presents in front of me and I open them with the eagerness to see what amazing thing awaits!


July 4, 2008

The day I have been waiting for finally came and it was more amazing then I ever thought it would be. Over the past couple of days I have been learning about how 'Love' is not something you force, it's something that comes natural. Learning this made me realize what was stopping me from allowing Jesus to completely take over my life. I was forcing the whole relationship, when really what I wanted to do is to sit back and let Jesus come into my life. Offering everything I have for him and let him do whatever he saw fit. Giving every corning of my heart to him and reaching for him with open arms. That's what I did and he accepted my love request with a celebration that I could of never imaged. Jesus proposed to me (July 4th, 2008) the very way I imaged it would happen with my prince charming, I just never knew it would be Jesus on the other in. Sometimes in life you are amazed by the littlest thing and well this is HUGE! Jesus truly does know each of us and our deepest desires! Just like the fire flies glowing at night, may my love for Jesus glow for all the world to see.

A Sign From Up Above!

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Just yesterday I was questioning my love for Jesus and how I could fall head over heals for him. I want to have a personal relationship with him just like if I was married to him. I was going over and over it in my head just picturing what it would look like. So far we have gone on walks, had long talks over just about everything, and even cried and laughed together, but the thing that has been missing is the head over heals feeling you get when you are crazy in love with someone. Knowing at every moment you are loved by them and that they would do anything in there power to be with you and only you. Well while I was driving yesterday a car pulled out in front of me and reminded me how much Jesus truly loved me and wants to have that relationship with me. Now you might be saying how can a car pulling out in front of me do this. Well you see on the back of the car says "Jesus Loves You." Just what I needed. I have always said that boyfriends writing messages on windows or in grass was always romantic and how I wanted that to happen to me and yesterday I had that chance. Now it's not the man back then I thought would write me a message but this message was well worth the wait and means more then anything to me. It is opening my heart to the possibilities of the connection with Jesus and the love you can only get when you are head of heals in love. I continue to wait to see what he has next for me and I know that want ever it is it will be more then I ever imagine.

I Got A Little Hope In My Pocket

Friday, June 20, 2008

Messages from above sometimes come in amazing packages. Over the past couple of weeks I have tried to find the true joys in life. I have started the journey of giving my life over to Jesus and beginning to have a personal relationship with him. This is a huge step in my life and so far it has been one of the toughest things I have ever done, however Jesus is always there leading me back to him. Yesterday I was at a friends house and he told me he had a new song he wanted to play for us. It was by Bebo Norman called, "I'm Alright." Below is the words ;

I got a little hope in my pocket
I want to share of it with you
Just be careful that you don't drop it
Don't worry if you do
Cause I've got broken down inside me
And I might just need some help
But I will get by
Hey, hey
And I've got demons in my history
Got bone beneath my skin
I've been taken by a mystery
Yes I've been taken in
And sometimes voices down inside me
Try to fight me for myself
I will get by
Hey, hey
What have I got to live for
If there is nothing beating in my chest
And what have I got to live for
When this world starts turning
It's burning me up
I'm alright
I used to think love was just a barter
Second hand coincidence
What doesn't kill you just makes you harder
So I use my common sense
Keeping cold to keep my distance
Til' you took my pride away
Now I will get by
Yeah, yeah
Cause what have I got to live for
There is nothing beating in my chest
And what have I got to live for
When this world starts turning
It's burning me up
I'm alright
But I am not afraid
No I am not afraid
And I will not go crazy
I got a little hope here in my pocket
Want to share of it with you
Just be careful that you don't drop it
Don't worry if you do
Cause I've got voices down inside me
And I might just need some help
I will get by
Hey, hey
What have I got to live for
There's nothing beating in my chest
And what have I got to live for
When this world starts turning
Burning me up
When my heart is hurting
I'm learning about love
When this world starts turning
It's burning me up
I'm alright

When he first started singing this song I got this rush over me and I know at that moment Jesus was speaking to me. The song talks about having demons in your past and how when you don't have Jesus in your life you feel like you are burning up inside with no hope. However if you have Jesus/the voice deep in side you don't need to be afraid because he LOVES you no matter what. Now how is that for a Little Hope In My Pocket. How is this for Jesus showing me how important my relationship is with him. How I need to truly give my life over to him and to never worry about what is going to happen as the world starts to turn. This song also made me realize how important it is to rely on friends to help me become closer to Jesus. It is these people in my life who have opened my eyes and I thank God every day for bring them into my life as well as giving his one and only Son, Jesus, to die on the cross for our sins.

When life gets tough I will always remember to reach down into my pocket and gab that little bit of hope. Because I got a little hope in my pocket and it is called Jesus! And now I can move mountains! :D

A New Start to A New Beginning

Saturday, March 15, 2008

Most people think of a new start as getting a new job, a higher salary, or even a change in location. What about becoming a full-time volunteer or even handing your life over to Jesus and giving up life as you knew it. Well that is what I am doing with my life. Some say I am completely crazy and others look up to what I am doing. I view it as a chance to truly follow Jesus and to grow to be the person he made me to do.

This past week I finally gave up my pride and started the application process of receiving food stamps. WoW! Just starting the process has opened my eyes to what people in poverty have to deal with. I always questioned why low income family never had savings or even a retirement. Well you can't if you want any type of assistance. Is this what we are trying to communicate with our society?? I thought we wanted them to learn to save and be able to end the cycle of poverty!! Plus what about housing assistance. I also looked into this and you must first be put on a 18 month waiting list. So are you telling society go be homeless for 18 months and then we will feel sorry for you and help pay for some of your houses cost. I think we need to re-evaluate our system so people who are in need can receive help right away to get them back on there feet.

God has given me this experience to open my eyes to the world around me and to also learn to put my faith and my life into his hands. This past six months in my life has been truly amazing and even through I am living at poverty level God has given me some truly amazing gifts. He has given me amazing friends, a higher self-confidence, and the view in life that I can do anything with God by my side. In Philippians 4:12-13 Paul says "I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength." This verse gives me a new motto in life and that is that no matter what happens I can do everything and anything in Jesus Christ my Savior. To me this is a truly amazing start to a wonderful life and I just can't wait to see what happens.

Check back soon and see how God is working wonders in my life! :D