Tuesday, May 29, 2012

Victim or Victor!

Are you a victim or a victor? Choices in life are often overwhelming and often have you praying out to God for help. It is at these moments that you have a choice. Do you become bitter and allow the event in your life to break who you are? or Do you become better and allow it to build who we are? Today when I needed the reminder God provided me with this text. It says, "Every test in our life makes us bitter or better, every problem comes to break us or make us. The choice is ours whether we become victim or victor." God showed me that I have a choice.Yes, life happens and things work against us, however we have choices. We can allow the things of earth to eat away at our souls making us more hopeless and a victim or we can overcoming life and be a victor.

Today I have decided that I will no longer live as a victim. I will raise above the pain and sorrow of this life and stand firm as a victor in Christ because it is only in him I fill solid ground.

Being Known...

Being known is often the most frightening thing is life. Well at least it is for me. I try my hardest to not to be known. To hide who I am because of the fear of being known may cause sadness and pain. My way of life has also been to hide and/or to run every time life becomes overwhelming or uncomfortable. The best way I have controlled or really had a lack of control has been to pack up and move. Six months ago was the first time I moved without running from something or someone. It wasn't an attempt to get away or to start fresh. It was just simply a calling I felt to follow Christ and serve him wherever he would led. This move however has been the hardest. I have spent most nights crying myself to sleep wondering what my purpose is here. Why Lord, Why have you sent me here? I question and ask God to reveal his plan, to show me his path, and to be the light in my life. But more days then most I am left still questioning his plan. I have experience enough sadness in my life to know that brighter days will come. That the clouds will clear from the sky and the light will shine ever so bright. But the cloudy day have made me gloomy. Dreaming of brighter days. Hanging on to the hope because I know even on cloudy days the sun still shines ever so bright behind the clouds. So, days when the world seem to be against me and my first response is to pack and run away I dig in the depth of my soul and grab that hope only you can give. And I pray that some day I will feel safe to be known. Until then I hang on to you.