Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Life Lesson

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass,
it's about learning to dance in the rain.

Saturday, April 25, 2009


Over the last week I have had very little sleep. My mind has been processing all the choices and life decisions I have to make. Each morning however I have been blessed with waking up and reading the KLove Encouraging Word of the day. On Sunday when I was first faced with me decision of picking up my roots this summer and moving I felt completely overwhelmed. However the Lord showed me to look to him and to trust him with the path he is leading. This is the verse he shared with me...

Let me hear of your unfailing love in the morning, for I am trusting you. Show me where to walk, for I have come to you in prayer.
~ Psalm 143:8

Wow, Lord you will show me the path. I didn't realize how powerful this was tell looking back on my week. On Monday I was beginning to question the Lord's path for me. My faith in him was starting to lack and be replaced with selfish desires. Then over the next couple of days the Lord shared Philippians 3:9 and 1 Corinthians 12:31 with me.

I no longer count on my own righteousness through obeying the law; rather, I become righteous through faith in Christ.
~ Philippians 3:9

So you should earnestly desire the most helpful gifts.
~ 1 Corinthians 12:31

The Lord was opening my eyes to the fact I was desiring not his will but my own. I was afraid of being broken down so I could be built up. Of being exposed of the truth. I was trying to cover-up the path the Lord was laying by coming up with reasons why I shouldn't follow. How he once again answered with...

Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.
~ Matthew 6:33

With that I questioned the pain I would travel through, the heartache, and the exposure I would be placed in. But the Lord comforted me with Isaiah.

When you go through deep waters, I will be with you.
~ Isaiah 43:2

For I know the Lord will be with me. His hand will be guiding my path and my desires shall now becomes his. The Lord will carry me and then let me crawl and then he will offer his hand and I will stand up. I will stand on his rock and my foundation will be on him.

God sent his Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through him.
~ John 3:17

Along the walk I will learn to only seek Jesus approval. For only by the Son am I saved.

This morning when I woke up I was overwhelmed by the encouragement the Lord gave me. I was wondering how would I be able to make it Lord through the summer, walking by faith?? I am often reminded of my ability to be very hard headed. I would say the I just have a extremely high will power, but you can say it however you would like. If someone told me that I couldn't do something I would prove them wrong. I was always quick to respond and stand up for myself. This summer I know the Lord will be molding me in this area. How, I'm not sure but I know the Lord will be working his will. He reminded me of this in today's verse...

Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters: you must all be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to get angry. Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires.
~ James 1:19-10

So will the Lord give me the ability to be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to angry. I'm looking forward to this opportunity and as one of my friend said I am looking forward to being bubble gum. Being chewed, spit out, and sticking to Jesus. For then the Lord will do the walking and directing all the turns on the road of life. Never again will I be alone.

I praise the Lord for showing his will for me and directing me through my hard headed desires. May I be refreshed by his desires and seek him everyday of my life. This week was just the start of the journey we are on and I can't wait to see the amazing work he is doing.

Until next time may the Lord be with you and grant you peace!!

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Cheer up pup!

A good friend of mine used to always be able to cheer me up, with the simple words of, 'Cheer up pup!' The beaming smirk coming from there face was irresistible and made me laugh every time. I tried to fight it off but with all my strength I was never able to stay in a grumpy mood. This came to my mind today as I try to seek Jesus' smirk to overcome this grumpy mood I have been in for way to long. Everything seems to be pushing the wrong buttons and I can't seem to find a way out. I search and search and I pray for direction and strength to overcome this period of my life.

Sunday, April 5, 2009


Each day I turn to the Lord to praise him for the abilities he has provided me. The ability to walk, to dance, and even to cry. Today, I joined Jesus in a time of submission. Walking arm-in-arm with him around campus. Learning his plan for me and how he must break me of my own hard headed strength so that I can completely submit myself to him. I began crying over my past ways and at that moment the Lord began crying with me. I felt the gentle hand of the Lord reaching down to me. I lifted my arms and began dancing in Jesus' tears. The cares of the world disappeared and over the next hour I had the most intense conversation with Jesus I have ever had. Laying my heart and mind at his feet so he could soften them. I walked down the isle with Jesus' and recommitted my love for him. Submitting to his power, grace, and his will for me. So each day I will praise the Lord for his strength and his will to not only submit to him but to every brother in Christ.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Overwhelming Pain

Life has began taking a toll on my body and my mind. I lay here in pain, I pray to the Lord for his healing hands. The aches have been increasing and my head is exploding. I can fill my heart beat in my head and it just seems like I can't find rest. I'm so young for this and so I pray for the Lord to work his healing hands. To grant me peace and rest in this time of pain.