Sunday, September 7, 2014

Middle Ground...

Living life in the middle ground can make you feel so torn... reaching for more but being pulled back by fear. Learning to be real but also being pulled back by insecurities. I know life isn't support to be easy but learning to trust fully... to let go of everything but Christ is the hardest. Trusting... Leaning... And Believe that all this is all possible in and through the one who gives life.  So Lord guide my heart.. my life... and my path. Be the protector of my heart and let me truly pour my heart out to those you desire. 

Tuesday, August 26, 2014

Desert Song...

Life is a consist battle, fighting to keep going, to see the light and to keep my head above water. I've always been one to embrace the valleys with the mountains but these last days have seemed too overwhelming to see God working. I'm not sure if you have ever felt like this but if you have I want to let you know that you're not alone. I'm not one which embraces emotions but the last couple of weeks I have been breaking out in tears. With all the strength inside of me I have tired to hide the tears. Cover up the pain in my heart and the fear I live with. I mask it with a smile covering up the truth. I know I can only hide it for so long but it hasn't be long enough. Each time a little comes out I want to hide even more. Weakness has been something I run from something I leap off of cliffs for. This overwhelming feeling started back up again a couple weeks ago at Church when the worship band started to play Desert Song by Hillsong. It's one of those songs which broke open my heart. I'm not one to easily cry but I couldn't help it. The words moved my heart. I'm a huge fan of Jonah and I think these two go together because of the prayer in the desert. If you think to the times in your life where you feel lost... where you are searching for something... where you feel empty and hopeless.. or when you want to run for what God is calling you too then this song could move you as well. Spend some time reading over the words below...
This is my prayer in the desert


When all that's within me feels dry
This is my prayer in my hunger and need
My God is the God who provides
[Verse 2:]And this is my prayer in the fire
In weakness or trial or painThere is a faith proved
Of more worth than gold
So refine me, Lord, through the flame
[Chorus:]And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
[Verse 3:]And this is my prayer in the battle
When triumph is still on its way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand
[Chorus:]And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
[Bridge 4x:]All of my lifeIn every season
You are still God
I have a reason to sing
I have a reason to worship
[Chorus 2x:]And I will bring praise
I will bring praise
No weapon formed against me shall remain
I will rejoice
I will declare
God is my victory and He is here
\[Verse 4:]This is my prayer in the harvest
When favor and providence flow
I know I'm filled to be emptied again
The seed I've received I will sow



No matter what's happening in your life I challenge you to bring praise to God for in the desert because he is there with you. No matter how empty you are you have the strength to keep going. Even if it's only for one step because I know the Lord will continue to provide the strength each and every step of the way. In my years of life I have learned that no matter how deep a valley seems the joy at the top will be well worth the journey. So hold on and fight your way back.